KB3 D74 - reflections on why I have been MIA
- Jul 5th, 2019 at 6:47AM
Sorry team for being MIA for pretty much the last month. I don’t have a good excuse, I just haven’t made Kenzai as much of a priority as I was planning to.
To be honest, I can’t quite put my finger on why this program hasn’t «clicked ». I was disciplined the first few weeks but that resolve petered quickly and I never really got it back, I just had lots of ups and downs.
My relationship with food the past few weeks has been bad. I think this is something I really need to work on as I am struggling, I don’t feel in control like my cravings control me. Then I feel horrible about it but still let the cycle repeat itself. The other week I ever cried about it - I hardly ever cry and yet here I was so upset and disappointed with myself for having eaten things I know are bad for me - why?
On the exercise front things have been smoother, I have missed one workout each of the past few weeks but have exercised every day. I have been doing quite a lot of outdoor cardio - running, cycling, open water swimming - which I am really enjoying.
Will knuckle down to finish the last two weeks strong with the team. I won’t get the results I wanted (my own fault) but at least I can be there for others!