Alexia M.
Kenzai Member
KB3 D74 - reflections on why I have been MIA
- Jul 5th, 2019 at 6:47AM
Sorry team for being MIA for pretty much the last month. I don’t have a good excuse, I just haven’t made Kenzai as much of a priority as I was planning to.
To be honest, I can’t quite put my finger on why this program hasn’t «clicked ». I was disciplined the first few weeks but that resolve petered quickly and I never really got it back, I just had lots of ups and downs.
My relationship with food the past few weeks has been bad. I think this is something I really need to work on as I am struggling, I don’t feel in control like my cravings control me. Then I feel horrible about it but still let the cycle repeat itself. The other week I ever cried about it - I hardly ever cry and yet here I was so upset and disappointed with myself for having eaten things I know are bad for me - why?
On the exercise front things have been smoother, I have missed one workout each of the past few weeks but have exercised every day. I have been doing quite a lot of outdoor cardio - running, cycling, open water swimming - which I am really enjoying.
Will knuckle down to finish the last two weeks strong with the team. I won’t get the results I wanted (my own fault) but at least I can be there for others!
4 comments
over 1 year ago
thanks for sharing the struggles. this has been a harder program for me as well. routines can be powerful. i found that when i spin out, its easier to do it again. we have 16 days left. lets focus on establishing a rebust routine on tge diet side. it sounds like you have nailed on the exercise. great job there! recognize that and lets apply the same discipline on food. im 100% with you. we can do this. lets finish strong 💪
Head Trainerover 1 year ago
Alexia, bad days, bad weeks, bad months, even bad programs happen. They are all normal. Thanks for showing up here to give voice to your struggles. There is strength in showing up as you are.
Now, leaning just a bit into this diet stuff. I wonder just how bad your diet has been. For some, anything less than Kenzai Body levels ass-kickery is a fail. Is this the case for you?
Or said another way, maybe it would be helpful to celebrate what you are getting right? I am almost 100 percent sure you aren't starting the day with Whiskey and Waffles. So at least there is that!
Rock on, pal. Having aced like 10 Kenzai courses, you have proved yourself to be a pro. A few KB3 wobbles won't change that!
over 1 year ago
Appreciate your honesty Alexia! We all have our tough moments and I’m so thankful I’m not alone on this journey! The end is in sight now - let’s finish strong together!
over 1 year ago
hey Alexia. Well, for me, the most important thing is your honesty with us. And let me tell you, you are not alone in your predicament. The others habe already said it all and I agree with their comments entirely. We are all always learning, about ourselves and about life. Keep going!
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