Graduation? GRADUATION POST
I don't know if I personally even want to count this as my 'graduation'. This wasn't my finest 3 months. I will be signing up for another Kenzai program to get back on track, perhaps Reboot to ease in again. Envious and proud of all those who stayed true to the program!
I hate to admit it, but I think I bit off more than I could chew. Perhaps I needed to start with a shorter program before jumping into Kenzai Body. Clearly, I haven't been able to keep up. The program is at its end and I'm not even half way there.
I’ve been awfully quiet lately but trying to a lot in the workouts as possible. Some aberrations on the diet unfortunately - more a function of being exhausted at the end of a day than anything else. This Kenzai experience is surely nothing like any of the ones I’ve done previously but that’s no one fault but my own.
Last few days haven’t been Kenzai compliant. This was due to a quick vacation and crazy work hours. Trying to jump back onto the bandwagon but it feels like the exercises exponentially increased in difficulty! :/
Down with something like a stomach bug today. Argh!
Hoping I can’t find time amidst the chaos of work and conference calls to make time for myself. The reason I signed up for Kenzai was to prioritise myself and I’m failing miserably at that. Somethings gotta give.
Hopefully I’ll bounce back, more resilient this time.
Pre-Kenzai, if I picked up 10 pieces of clothing at a store, I'd probably (if i was lucky) end up fitting into 1-2 pieces. Today I fit into more than half the pieces I picked up to try. I'm counting this as 'Victory'! :D
Last week was tough - loooong days at work and conference calls at night left me with little time but I managed to get my workouts done, albeit on a couple of instances I only had time to do 3 sets of each workout (instead of 4) but I am pleased I didn't slack off completely. Missed one day of workout in the last 7-10 days and ate a pack of biscuits one evening but besides that, going strong and going on!
The diet isn't as annoying as struggling to find time for the exercises - either as soon as I get home from office which means I miss the only 1-1.5 wakeful hours with my 10 month old or then after her bedtime and my night calls which becomes as late as 9 or 930 pm. This isn't sustainable. Cant do the exercises in the morning as my lower back is stiff and sore in the mornings to the Physio suggested I keep my exercises regime for later in the day when my back is better. SO well there is one part of my rant.
What else am I fed up with? Of not seeing an upward crawl in my confidence when I look in the mirror.
Anyway, I was back on the bandwagon today and so far, my aberrations have been as follows:
- 3 days of no exercise (2 days when I was unwell and yesterday when I was just plain pissed off at this whole thing)
- approximately 2-3 meals when I wasn't compliant (again, one or two were when I wasn't well and one was yesterday when I was upset/hangry)
Today's indulgence involved a carb-y lunch (yes, carbs are an evil I love) and a piece of carrot cake (mmm). In hindsight, I should've started with dessert and then eaten a salad. My craving was mostly for something sweet but I guess I 'indulged'. The silver lining? I'm done with junk for the next one month (i.e. till the next indulgence!). It's amazing how veggies form such a minuscule, sometimes nonexistent part of any meal at a restaurant. I hadn't given it much thought until now. I was too focussed on the bread basket till now.
In other news, diet has been on point and so had the exercise. I noticed how an extra 50 skips were slyly added in ;) I am just a little, teeny-weeny bit less 'stuffed' in my clothes. Some days were hard - more because of the exhaustion of a crazy day at work, then conference calls and pushing myself to go to the gym. But I dragged my ass to the gym and I got the exercises done. Sure, I stumbled on my rope an embarrassing amount but I clocked in every single skip for the day.
Wonder what next week will have in store...!
Week 3 begins!
So where did I falter and which parts were relatively easier?
- Lack of sleep (thanks adorable 10 month old!). Boy oh boy, what lack of sleep can do.
- A lower back issue which prohibits me from working out first thing in the morning, leaving me to hit the gym post a grueling work day when my energy is at rock bottom and exhaustion creeps into the space where motivation should be sitting pretty.
- Diet on point EXCEPT one night when we had friends over and I ate about 100 gms of carbs (versus the prescribed 50 grams) and a portion of home made fish (when actually I had no proteins prescribed for dinner)
- Annoyance at not seeing much of a change when i look into the mirror (yes, yes, i know its only been 2 weeks) and self-doubt about being able to achieve my fitness goals (*rolls eyes*)
The smooth sailing:
- Not a single missed day of exercise or diet (well besides that one aberration)
- A teeny weeny increase in energy level since I started working out.
- Because my days are so packed, i honestly have no time for cravings and can eat absolutely anything without thinking twice or fussing (a salad without any dressing! how about that?)
1. Where are you from and what do you do?
- From India but living in Hong Kong since 2015. I work with a bank (yawn).
2. What's your best quality?
- Wow. Didn't think I'd struggle so much with this answer. Umm. I think I'm quite creative.
3. How did you hear about Kenzai and get to be here? If you were referred by an alumni, tell us who!
- My husband told me about it in 2017. Since then I completed Kenzai Body and Reboot. This is my second time with Kenzai Body.
4. What surprised me most about week 1?
- What surprised me most was how much of a difference a year of no exercise and 50 extra pounds can make. I feel unfit and am ridden with aches and pains. I should've known those delicious lactation brownies were evil! On the brighter side, I'm quite keen to get rid of the flab and feel good in my skin again.
To say that the last one year has been a rollercoaster ride would be a hilarious understatement. The kind of hilarious where you roll your eyes and end your snorting laugh with a "yeah right".
Everything in my world changed - personally (had a baby 9 months ago) and professionally (took on a huge role right after a meagre maternity leave). Suffice to say, I'm at my personal lowest - heavier than I have ever been and busier than I could ever imagine. Self esteem negative. Confidence lower than low. You get the picture.
This is my second time doing Kenzai Body 1. I did completed KB1 with a fierce passion two years ago and saw spectacular results. So here I am again, dragging my post-baby body over the line to Kenzai land. I know Kenzai works, I know what Kenzai can do. I guess I've just forgotten what I can do.
Here's to me; to all of us.
I've been told I complain too much so on this blog I won't do that anymore. Here are some quick updates and inputs:
- The diet and exercise this week (so far) have been on point. Can't say the same for last week given there were 3 indulgences in one week to celebrate Diwali. Pictures of the festivities uploaded for your viewing pleasure !
- Can feel the difference with minimal salt in my diet and my face surely feels less pudgier
- T minus 9 to my wedding reception. Needless to say I'm a bundle of nerves and an emotional wreck. Managing to get my workouts and diet done in this emotional wreckage isn't easy but I'm trying.
- will need to figure out what to do in terms of the diet and workout regime once I fly to India on Nov 1 ! Trainers help me out ! :)
Sorry about the insipid blog post - drowned in work and 6 am - 9 pm work days this week. I'll follow this up with a more detailed blog soon. Haywire week on all counts. More to follow.
Okay! I'm not hiding behind the couch anymore and here are some updates since my last blog:
- Last week, I got 6 out of 7 workouts done nice and proper. It’s been an on again-off again time for me health wise with minor spells of being ill every now and then. Anyway, feeling better today (minus the sore and painful throat) so you'll find me in the gym this evening - thats a promise.
- Diet has been more or less on point minus yesterday when i wasn't well and ate soup and a sandwich for lunch and dinner.
- Realized the thrill of an ‘indulgence’ for me is a nice dessert and not as much other things like savory snacks or a large calorific drink. Anyway, thanks to a night out this Sunday, my indulgence ended up being a little stretched to a Sichuan dinner with some Vino. Okay, quite a lot of vino.
- Scales aren’t moving at all :( but clothes fit slightly better (teeny tiny tad bit). Slight muscle formation in the arms and legs though the chubby torso still follows me around everywhere. Still haven't reached a point where I'm comfortable wearing a sleeveless dress/shirt.
- In my last blog post, Thomas suggested that I make a resolve to focus on 2 key things. For me those are –
1. If I can finish my work out before the fatigue of a weekday or the laziness of a weekend seeps in, I can have the rest of the day/evening to plan anything else I want. Must get the workout done as soon as possible on any given day.
2. Planning and prepping for my meals is critical – If we’re going to be out, I need to carry my snacks so as to avoid getting hangry and making poor food choices.
On a more existential note, I got into a very interesting discussion with my husband yesterday and we wondered why healthy food is more expensive and difficult to find than ready-to-eat junk. For instance, a burger at McDonalds is 10$ but a half decent salad (even the one from a supermarket/grocery store) is nothing less than 50-70$. Pretty counter-intuitive that our society wants to be healthy but there is such a big price to pay for it both monetarily and in terms of effort. Of course in the long run the benefits of spending more on a salad versus a burger are immense (reduced health bills, for one!), but it’s amazing how difficult it is to find good food which is healthy, easily available and not priced ridiculously. Of course cooking at home is the easiest answer to this problem but it’s a localized solution and the couch questioning we were onto last night was more about how closely entwined education, earning capacity, etc. Long story short, as rewarding as it is to be healthy and eat clean, it's a choice that requires everyday effort but I guess that’s what makes all the difference : )
(P.S - Thanks Deb for the much needed nudge! :) )
'Arrghh' - that's the perfect word to describe five days of a sunny, carby and beach bum-y vacation. Zero exercise (unless you count bumming around in the pool), totally non-compliant meals and self inflicted ignorant bliss.
The start of KB2 hasn't been ideal. Who am i kidding - its been nothing like I wanted it to be and so far, i'm probably only 50% on track so far in terms of diet and workouts. Anyway, this isn't going to be a rant (surprise surprise).
I hope I can get my motivation back by reading through all the teams blogs and the daily lessons. I've realised what my virtuous/vicious cycle is - if i workout and put in all the effort to sweat it out, I am less likely to cheat on a meal or detour from my diet. Hopefully I'll have more epiphanies to share. For now, I'll be hiding behind the couch.
What do I want to get out of this training?
One word - RESULTS. I want to feel as good about my body as I did at the end of KB1. I remember my enthusiasm and effort during KB1 was relentless and strangely even though I just finished a good Reboot program, I do feel slightly jaded and not as inspired as I should be. I am an ‘all or nothing’ kind of person and I really want to (quickly) move to the ‘All’ end of the Kenzai spectrum.
What do I need in order to make that happen?
Inspiration and Intent. Both will waver from time to time but I hope blogging, venting, sharing and being a mule about my body-goals helps me during slothful days.