KB 3 - Day 15 - Totally off the rails there for a bit
- May 15th, 2017 at 11:31AM
Its been a tough start and I feel like I need to confess some major mishaps. Days 1-7 was a long good bye to my favourite foods - almost a binging type attitude as I knew what was to come. This was disappointing and a bit of a nod as to why I struggle so badly off Kenzai. I feel like I am in danger (and in fact, last month, reality) of lurching in a boom to bust way - on diet: good, then off diet; binge.
Then week 2. Started well, and all good. I was travelling for work (Seoul). Then, a preorganised meet up with a friend from Shanghai who flew over (Monika C) so we could hang, enjoy the city and fit in one last regional trip before her return to the US. And I went totally off the rails. Food wasn't too bad - kind of stuck to it loosely. But had 2 nights out on martinis and g&ts. It was like Kenzai was a parallel universe that I wasn't in!
As you can imagine, the remorse has been intense, and I have had to have a good talking to myself. My blogging and team mate support has been bad too, and that I put down to having had a very intense schedule over the last couple of weeks, where I am just about keeping up with everything. Ditto the lessons. I have to read 7 lessons in a row when I finish this. All this culminates in not feeling "close" to the programme, which we all know is very dangerous ground. I have been down this road before, with a not great attempt at KB 2 around 18 months ago. I am determined to not to repeat the performance. I know that if I have one good day behind me, other good days follow. I am getting a little stressed about an upcoming holiday to the UK. I really don't want to be derailed.
There, feel better for getting it down. Now just need to get on with it!