...rather than abject failure.
I completely screwed up lunch today. I had made and packed a Kenzai-ed version of Bolognese sauce with whole wheat pasta, but totally forgot that I had a lunch out. I figured we'd go somewhere and I'd order fish, rice and steamed veggies and I would approximate the portions. We went to a Thai restaurant. The rice was easy enough, but are fresh spring rolls Kenzai-approved? What are the portions? And my chicken came in a (delicious) curry sauce which I'm sure was liberally salted and sugared. I tried to pull the chicken and veggies out of the sauce without being drenched, but this definitely wasn't the lunch I was supposed to be having. I finally got so frustrated that I said, aw screw it, and ordered a double martini.
Ok, kidding on the last point. But I am embarrassed to have gone reasonably astray on the first day.
I got back on track with dinner. Here's the Bolognese I made.
In the USA, Monday was Presidents' Day and a holiday for many of us. This gave me the opportunity to have my first day of the real Kenzai diet at home. I'm glad. I was unprepared for the amount of vegetables I would be consuming, especially in the morning when I don't usually have any. I also need to go back to the market and get a lot more yogurt. Instead of focusing on the things I can't have, I'm trying to reframe this positively as an opportunity to try new things. For example, since fish is the most highly recommended protein, I want to use this as an opportunity to get really good at cooking fish. I grew up in Hawaii, so it's a little embarrassing that I don't know how already. Today I cooked some great salmon, and I invented my own Kenzai-legal versions of mango salsa and pickled ginger to give flavor. If they turn out good, I'll share the recipes.
I also did my exercises in the courtyard with my son - it was both focused and quality time. I managed to avoid hitting him with my jumprope and he added some extra weight on my squats and push ups.
Day 8 Diet! I'm both excited and scared to start the "real" part of the Kenzai diet. I was surprised this morning at the amount of vegetables we'll be eating for breakfast. 150g is a LOT of sautéed spinach. Fortunately, that half stick of butter helped to cook it right down to nothing. Kidding Thomas! I'm really grateful that coffee is in bounds on this program. Giving up alcohol and salt will be hard enough. Ask me to give up my coffee and I might cut someone. Finished breakfast - brown rice, spinach, a runny fried egg (saving the dairy for post-workout) - and about to jump into the ramped up day 8 workout. I feel light and energetic from this breakfast.
Today was my first tough choice day. I had planned to workout in the early evening and then have dinner with my family. Late in the day, I jumped into a huge project at work ($850,000 grant application due tomorrow and someone did a horrible initial draft, so I'm trying to save it). I worked until 7:15pm... and still have more to do later. I was hungry, and it's a priority for me to spend time with my son in the evenings. But I went to the gym, did the day 4 workout (I can definitely feel 20 otter kicks!) and headed home just in time to kiss the boy goodnight and then get back to work, eating 3/4 of a dinner at my laptop. I'm proud that I stuck to the schedule. I'd feel stupid falling off this early. But was that time with jump rope and bands better spent than with my son? I'm conflicted about that.
Yesterday (Day 2), I dutifully cut out a quarter of my salad and gave it to intern. They are young, broke, and always take food. At 3:30, I found myself starving. I walked past my colleagues office and smelled something.
Walked into her office, checked out the plate on her desk, and said, "What you got going on there?"
It's a fried chicken Banh Mi.
I smiled again.
"Want some," she asked. "I'm not gonna eat that half."
It was gone in three seconds. I made the interns look like the upstairs folks on Downton Abbey. I'm not sure if we are supposed to snack or what, but I'm pretty sure that skipping a quarter of a salad and replacing it later with half a fried chicken sandwich is an epic fail. Damn it tasted good though. Today I was smarter. I brought some plain grilled chicken to work and kept it for my 3pm snack. I did get hungry and that satiated me through dinner. I really hope that I'm not hungry for three months because I may have to eat an intern.
I'm so bad and awkward at those otter kicks. But I think that laughing at myself while doing them works my abs even more. I can see how those are gonna HURT when we have to do them for longer durations.
Last night my husband cooked salmon perfectly. Moist, still translucent in the middle, and a crisp skin. I love that skin. I obediently removed a quarter of the salmon and a quarter of the rice from my plate. I kept all the steamed broccoli, because, you know, it's broccoli. I finished about 10 minutes before my son and husband and I just stared at the remaining salmon.
At 10pm I was starving. And I ate the last quarter of the salmon.
So did I lose?
So leaving a quarter of the food on the plate means that I shouldn't heap extra food on beforehand? What about seconds? What about other peoples food? My son's, my husbands, my coworkers?
What the heck is a braunite anyway?
I'm excited to "meet" all of you. The communal aspect of this program is really important to me, especially because exercise - running and weight lifting - has been such a solitary activity for me for so many years. It will be fun to make progress together.
I'm looking forward to the quarter challenge this week. I don't think it will be too hard to leave a quarter of the food on my plate. My bigger challenge is to avoid eating all the food that my 3 year old leaves on his plate.
Here we go!