Kim G.

Kim G.

Kenzai Body | Day 10
Kenzai Body
Day 10
 
Program progress:
Kenzai in the face!

The only door in our house for Kenzai swings both ways (the rest all slide into the walls)...so when I put the door stop on and pulled back powerfully for my first rowing exercise today...I got a slingshot in the face! It knocked me right to the ground and luckily hit me right ABOVE my eye. After lots of ice, a few Panadols, and nursing my bruised ego for being such a knob...I managed to finish my workout a few hours later. :0)


Hi Team Auriga

Just catching up on all the posts as I was sailing the first week with no internet (I took screen shots of all the works outs before we set sail).
To answer Kim's questions:
1. Home: Bondi Beach Australia
2. Obstacles: I love my cups of tea! In the past I would only have 2 a day (morning and afternoon) but once I discovered Decaf English Breakfast and Decaf Early Grey my consumption went up to 6-8 a day. This wouldn't be a problem except for the fact I have a little honey with every cup! So cutting down will be tough. I also travel overseas for work regularly and Kenzai on the road is a little more challenging then when I am in Sydney.
3. Super power: I would love to make every child feel truly loved and worthy.

And lastly...LOVE that so many folks here are actively reducing their single use plastic!!!


Back on LAND!
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First 7 days were on a sail boat so a little bit of a rough start! Super excited to be back on land and taking the program up a notch with the diet today and the more intensive exercise (although I was really feeling it in my arms and legs even with the 'gentle' plan last week!). And here is a pic of me excited to hit land for my Kenzai on the beach (yes...I skipped on the beach!!!)


Day 1

The first week will be interesting as I am on a sailboat this week with little internet (and not strong sea legs!). Super excited though!


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The Unexpected Journey 

As I wrote last week, my Kenzai journey was not what I had originally expected. I had imagined my photo on Day 90 to reveal a new toned, strong, fit, healthy physical body. I imagined I would rock this program in the traditional sense and have the physical results and the long term habits to show for my effort. I am not going to lie...I REALLY wanted that outcome. But I am coming to terms with the fact that it simply wasn't my intended journey. Like it or not, I had other lessons to learn that were more fundamental for me personally that have to come first.

Kenzai has forced me to look in the mirror and see things I never wanted to see in myself (because that would mean changing them!). As I reflect, these issues aren't new but I managed to live in denial for decades. I might have continued to live in denial for a few more decades if Kenzai hadn't expose them so glaringly. The trick now is not to retreat (which is exactly what I want to do...go back...forget...denial was a comfortable place!) but to face these issues head on.

I need to accept responsibility for the fact that I am the only person who creates my life - so if I am not happy with my health, I need to make fundamental changes.

I must take a good long look in that mirror. Be honest with myself about what I want. And then have the courage to take action towards getting it.

I am incredibly grateful to the Kenzai program and of course the people who bring it to life. Thomas, Cecilia, Yvonne you have all been a great inspiration! I had thought Day 90 would be the end…but for me…Kenzai was just the warm up…and today I begin my next journey to lasting health and well being…bring on Day One.


The Unexpected Journey...

As I wrote last week, my Kenzai journey was not what I had originally expected. I had imagined my photo on Day 90 to reveal a new toned, strong, fit, healthy physical body. I imagined I would rock this program in the traditional sense and have the physical results and the long term habits to show for my effort. I am not going to lie...I REALLY wanted that outcome. But I am coming to terms with the fact that it simply wasn't my intended journey. Like it or not, I had other lessons to learn that were more fundamental for me personally that have to come first.

Kenzai has forced me to look in the mirror and see things I never wanted to see in myself (because that would mean changing them!). As I reflect, these issues aren't new but I managed to live in denial for decades. I might have continued to live in denial for a few more decades if Kenzai hadn't expose them so glaringly. The trick now is not to retreat (which is exactly what I want to do...go back...forget...denial was a comfortable place!) but to face these issues head on.

I need to accept responsibility for the fact that I am the only person who creates my life - so if I am not happy with my health, I need to make fundamental changes.

I must take a good long look in that mirror. Be honest with myself about what I want. And then have the courage to take action towards getting it.

I am incredibly grateful to the Kenzai program and of course the people who bring it to life. Thomas, Cecilia, Yvonne you have all been a great inspiration! I had thought Day 90 would be the end…but for me…Kenzai was just the warm up…and today I begin my next journey to lasting health and wellbeing…bring on Day One.


Felt SOOOOOO good to rejoin the exercise program yesterday! I did Day 61 workout and took it a little easy on the push ups (4 sets of 5 rather then 4 sets of 11-13) and my captains chairs were almost non-existent! But overall felt great.
I am heading out to do Day 62 workout right now. The way I see it, I can keep going with my Kenzai routine and just finish the workouts 21 days after the rest of you :0)

Can't express how EXCITED I am to be feeling healthy after 3 weeks!!!!!!!!! Now my trick will be maintaining it!


Lasting health...

It has been 17 days since I got sick (with only one workout when I felt better- then woke up worse the next morning). I am going crazy as I feel I am missing the BEST parts of the program! Argh!!!
I am committed 100% to the diet and have started 2km walks to ease back into things but can't seem to shake this thing. My frustration has been eating away at me for over a week, as I grew angrier with my 'weak' body that once again 'let me down'. I have a history of only having 2 speeds - full speed ahead or dead stop. When I am 'full speed' it is fantastic. I can take the world by storm and feel invincible. It is all great...until I crash. I get a basic bug, cold, flu or whatever is going around and then can't shake it. It takes me down.
I have been trying to break this cycle for years and although I have made big progress...here I am again.

In writing this blog post, I am realizing that maybe my Kenzai journey wasn't about what I thought it was. I was searching for better health. Looking to create healthy, lasting habits around nutrition and exercise. I wanted to focus on my own health and well being and be accountable for that. I was also really wanting a kick ass body to be the new 'norm' and my job moving forward would be to maintain it.

But as I write now, I wonder if my Kenzai journey was about revealing something much deeper and more valuable for me.

I knew I wanted to be 'healthier' and assumed that if I ate better and exercised more then I would succeed. But here is the thing... there must be a base level of health to start with. If you live a toxic lifestyle, or in my case, run your energy in a fundamentally non-sustainable way, then layering on better nutrition and consistent exercise will certainly help - but they aren't addressing the root of the problem.

I am committed to finishing Kenzai strong - that means 100% of the diet and as much fitness as I can do without risking my immune system. But just as importantly, I am now committed to putting real time into understanding my deeper habits around my energy and my lifestyle. Because only when I tackle this deep rooted stuff will I be able to experience true, lasting, health and wellness (and then get that kick ass body!).

Thank you Kenzai.


Felt really good on Thursday and Friday -went back to work - did a full Kenzai on Friday - and then wham...was flattened again on Sat, Sun, Mon. Am going to see my Chinese Dr. later today and hope some acupuncture and herbs might help. I really need to get over this thing (not only for Kenzai but for my family, my work, and my LIFE!). Argh.


New Day...
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Feeling good today. Back on the diet and walked to the other end of the beach this morning with my hubby and oldest son for a cup of tea at sunrise. Great to get out, stretch my legs, and move after 5 days of being horizontal. Looking forward to my workout today and powering through the next few weeks! I am determined for my photo to actually LOOK different by the end of this!


out with the flu...

Third day of a wicked flu and just craving comfort food. Up until Saturday morning when I woke up sick, I had been doing all the exercises and really pushing myself. Body was feeling tired but good. I was determined to have a great week and really maximize the last month of Kenzai to get the most out of it. For me hitting 60 days was more of a panic - like - "oh no...there are only 30 days left - I have so much more I want to accomplish!". But then got hit with this flu and have pretty much been in bed or on the sofa for 2 1/2 days. Assumed I would keep up with the diet while sick but I haven't. I just want garlic on toast, soup, and orange juice. I also REALLY want sugar but luckily there aren't any treats in the house and I am too sick to get any. Hoping to return to the land of the living in the next few days and get back on track.


Thought I was going to write about how great it was to get that post with our original goals - just when I needed a boost - or how crazy busy I have been with work that I am behind on the daily lessons - or how tired and weak I feel (which now that I have caught up on the reading makes perfect sense) but instead I am distracted by this weeks photo. Vain I know...but it has really got to me. And when you add disappointment to feelings of exhaustion and being overwhelmed...it isn't pretty.
Going to bed and hope to wake up in a better head space.


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I didn't write about my half on Sunday as I honestly wasn't sure I was going to even do it. I had only been running 4 miles approx 4 times a week and with my sad dog news I just lost all motivation. BUT - we run for a charity called Every Mother Counts to raise funds and awareness for maternal health so it equally felt wrong to bail on them. Anyway... I ran. I was super slow...but I finished.
I skipped Kenzai both Saturday and Sunday and did a 3 mile shake out run on Monday with the abs/arms work rather then work my legs. I feel good and am sure that the only reason I finished at all was because of my Kenzai training.
I am excited about the 'real kenzai' this week and am determined to make the second half of this program really rock. I haven't lost kilos (but since muscles weights more then fat, I will take it!) and I am feeling more toned. Now I want to up the stakes and aim for tight, toned, slim, physique. I have my second wind!!!! Bring it!!!!


Week of Ups and Downs
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Had a rough time on the personal front last week that resulted in my children and I having Ben & Jerry's for dinner on Friday night. We recently moved back to Australia from America and just got word that our gorgeous dog has failed his final tests for entry into the country and he is permanently refused entry. We were expecting to be reunited with him this week so it was a brutal disappointed after missing him the last few months. Lots of tears from all of us as we now contemplate life in Sydney without him, and then the realities of finding him a new home. :0(
Everything seemed to get me down on the back at that news, and although I did my work outs and ate well, I was pretty miserable.
My motivation seems to swing from one extreme to the other - super pumped and loving it, to not wanting to do anything other then eat pizza and lie on the sofa. I am really aware of my crumpiness and am surprised at my emotional levels (I noticed that before our puppy news - it just got worse after).
Anyway...giving up or slowing down isn't an option. Just interesting to note.
ps. couldn't resist posting this picture of Kilo and I in Tanzania 2 years ago when he was tiny (we brought him to the US when he was a few months old).


should be working but am distracted by how badly I want SUGAR! I had a cup of my favourite tea (with milk and a little sugar) 2 hours ago with the hopes it would pass. But wow...I feel like I am an addict...So decided to write a quick blog to hold myself accountable. Cue self pep talk. I can do this. The sugar high will only last a few minutes, but the calories will last much longer. I don't need cookies. I can be disciplined. My desire for health and a great body far outweigh by desire for sugar.....I can do this...
Ok...back to work...


Final Photo

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