Nate Belle Isle

Nate Belle Isle

Kenzai Kettlebell 2 | Day 29 (Member)
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The final post! 

  • Dec 16th, 2016 at 8:57AM

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OK so I'm not really sure to take this one.

I've discussed at length about how this program tanked for me, and the very valuable lessons I learned from it. So I don't feel a need to re-hash how the program went, or didn't go haha. But I do think it's important to me to reflect a bit here on this experience.

It may be totally hypocritical to state the following: I'm not one to vent and talk too much about external stresses in my life here on the Kenzai blogs. It's not that I don't think it's the forum (I have respect for people who can be so open) and it's not that I don't think I would get support (I know I would!). But short of something like a cold, or injury blowing up my game I just have a hard time gushing about my life. Now that's the hypocritical part, or at least the part of me that resists the notion of posting such things to a public forum. See, I think the reasons is because I like to shy away from being the center of attention, so even saying "I don't like to talk about my stresses or issues whatever they may be because they draw attention to me," I know will draw attention to me! It's a weird cognitive dissonance and I"m doing my best to explain it.

Listen. Nothing is that bad, I'm not dying of cancer, my house isn't getting foreclosed on, my wife isn't ill. But these 90 days were a tad of a perfect storm of left hooks and upper cuts that were kind of driven to keep my off my game. In fact, this whole year has had it's challenges to say the least!

Since I don't like drawing attention to those things, or dwelling on them, I think I convince myself that I don't have a good reason for not doing a good job on the program, and I get pretty down and upset about it. That's something I totally need to work on. Especially knowing that without being in the program, I'm sure things would've gone a lot worse!

So besides keeping my diet tight during the off season before my next program, and getting in a good amount of kettlebell sessions, I want to work on myself as well. As in the "self" not just my body.

Self forgiveness is not something that comes easy to me, I hold myself to high standards. And I think sometimes thankfulness falls out of my grasp.

So to close out this blog, training season, and year I'm going to list some things that I am both thankful for, and happy about!

- My wife Miranda! Through everything she's a partner and a balance. We've been through a lot and we make a good team.
- My family. When people accept you for who you are, support you, and unconditionally love you, it's an amazing feeling. Like a safety net. That's what defines the people I consider my family, I don't care what sperm and egg brought you into this dimension, haha.
- My health. I have some things I need to improve, but heck, even being able to walk, poop, pee, see, hear, taste, smell. On my worst day I have it better than many in this world.
- Kenzai. My wellness would be nowhere near as good without the training programs I found from PCP, and then Kenzai. Special shout out to the architect! And of course to my fellow staff mates, and trainees. This support system is incredible
- I experienced pride in myself this year for building Kenzai Kettlebell. I didn't do it alone, but sweat and tears went into that project (and many hours). And it was done I felt good about it. As someone who has a hard time ever calling one of his paintings "finished" or "good," it was awesome feeling to have and empowered me to have more confidence in myself. Especially my writing abilities.
- My cats. Seriously. Kittens are awesome therapy.

Of course there are so many more. But as I move forward I want to leave this wreck of a KB3 behind me. Not because I can't bear to look at my failure. Not because I'm embarrassed I didn't do a good job. But because things just got crazy, and man that happens sometimes. It's not a big deal! I'll punch KB3 in the face the next time we meet. Or I won't, and that's OK too.

Each day, I will meet with my best, for that day.

See you in 2017 everyone! It's Reach for me in January, and blog silence until then. Time for a much needed break.

Bye!!! :)

GIF courtesy of Parks and Recreation featuring America's Sweetheart, Chris Pratt.

 
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6 comments

Nate Belle IsleNate Belle IsleKenzai Kettlebell 2 | Day 29 (Member)
Trainerover 2 years ago

Man, that did not seem that long until I hit "Submit." If any of ya'll actually read it, love you! If not, dude, I forgive you. haha


    Sharmali ArumugathasanSharmali ArumugathasanKenzai Blast: T-shirt Ready | Day 2 (Member)
    Trainerover 2 years ago

    Loved reading this post Nate, and I totally get you. This round has been so hard for many of us but we're all here to tell the tale so I think we all did pretty damn good. Take a bow Sir KBelle Isle, you have so much to be proud of this year, and not being a quitter can tag on the end of your list of great accomplishments!
    See you in Jan for some Reach fun, I'm there too.
    Congrats!!


      Elissa ImranElissa ImranKenzai Mind | Day 16 (Member)
      Trainerover 2 years ago

      Of course we'll read it Nate! I don't know what challenges you have been facing. But these programs are tough - mentally, physically, time-sucking. And sometimes prioritizing other things is the right thing to do. As you say, there can be a next time. And if the stars align, you'll be able to prioritize your fitness and crush it!
      Looking forward to Reaching with you in January!


        Scott BurnsScott BurnsKenzai Iron | Day 23 (Member)
        Trainerover 2 years ago

        Nice blog man. I can't wait to try out your bells program. Have a great holiday and relax. See you in 2017.


          Ward WillisWard WillisKenzai Blast: T-shirt Ready | Day 1 (Member)
          Head Trainerover 2 years ago

          As you know, the journey is about so much more than great abs. That is what makes it so great. But feeling that push pull of wanting to do a great job with the cycle but not having the bandwidth is tough. Nate, my heart goes out to you bro. Sitting with that for 90 or so days can leave you a bit battered inside.

          And yet.....I imagine it'll help you identify this feeling in the event it ever shows up again during a training cycle or elsewhere in your life. Experience helps. Plus, it would be waaaay harder if you didn't have an awesome community to lean on. Clearly you do. If nothing else, that seems to be in super clear view.

          So, exhale. Let yourself off the hook a little knowing there will be many other training cycles down the line. Give those kitties some love and we'll see you back in the training saddle when the time is right. Much love. COMPLETE.


            Matt BerlinMatt BerlinKenzai Blast: Beach Ready | Day 8 (Member)
            Trainerover 2 years ago

            Not the program you wanted, but like you said if you had quit doing it things probably would have been worse. This is just a 3 month blip in the long game, and you (and we) know you'll take down KB3 in full when you do it again when you have the time to do it like you want to. So give yourself the pass and enjoy a break from the training and blogs. See you in 2017 and looking forward to doing your Bells program!!


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