My home currently looks like the scene from E.T. when Elliot was in quarantine.
Recap: A very small construction job that was meant to create a little lofted space in my son's, shared walk in closet that we call their bedroom, revealed mold n the ceiling and walls! So the sheet rock has been torn off the entire upstairs walls and ceiling . New venting, insulation and sheet rock should be done by the end of this week, but we're going on week two of hospitality at chalet B-M.
Anyway, our house looks like the ET scene with plastic sealing off any chance for the new super villain MOLD to escape and infect the rest of the world. And, Liz, Wendy and their kids have been gracious hosts. This morning we had a little chuckle as we were all rounding out our Kenzai exercises. Photo for proof.
Many lessons learned from staying with the Blackwell-Moores about living with a lot of acceptance. BUT the best moment to date was this. I saw Liz cooking up her egg white dinner and when it was done cooking she grabbed the egg white right off the hot skillet, while it was still on the burner, with her bare hand and then proceeded to eat it. That image right there is what I want my Iron program to look like! Game on!
Emergency(less) GRADUATION POST
The big take away for me while doing Mind has been watching how big problems feel diminish. Taking time to sit with thoughts everyday, reminding myself to let them be quiet, and that I am not my thoughts has overall led to feeling like the blaring emergency horn has been turned down. Issues that felt like 9 feel more like 4, and the 4's are turned way down to barely an issue. I'm digging the new mind set and I'm looking forward to taking into Iron come March!
I'm hitting the grad button quick for anyone looking to jump from Mind into Chisel or SkiBoot. I'll make sure you get to the new program and then come back around for a grad comment.
Right now I'm in Albany celebrating a 77th Birthday with this trainee! https://kenzai.me/barbarad/blog
It doesn't have the same ra ra lets do this feeling as other physical training programs I've done with Kenzai. But, it feels really grounding and satisfying. This is a practice I want to take forward.
After three weeks of laying off the booze completely I had a few beers and bar b que the other night. I had a good time and it was nice to let loose, but man did I feel bloated!
Goals for the final week: Just stay consistent.
Goals for after Mind: Keep the meditation practice and give the exercise and nutrition a little more of a nudge. I'm ready to give the workouts a bit more enthusiasm and the sweets have been sneaking in!
I missed a couple of meditation session last week. Which I have to kind of laugh at. I mean not finding time to workout is one thing. It takes effort to get the workout in. It's a bigger time commitment, effort to push through, depending on the time of year also means I might want gym space as opposed to doing it on my back porch. But, not getting the meditation in?! Can't find 15 minutes to sit and do nothing?! I'm calling myself out on the lame factor! and then of course today's lesson steers me right back to self compassion. No need to let "Ted Head" have anymore of a foothold in my mind than he's already got!
Image: Looks like the No Parking sign got plowed over which gave me a little chuckle as I walked kids into school today.
I struggled with this one last week, but was reminded of it this morning as I headed out for a walk woods. The ice one the ground had a nice fresh layer of water on top of it, which really upped the ante on how present I felt!
I'm still digging the Mind program. My tinnitus has been a bit louder, which makes me wonder if I was just drowning it out with nonsense before and now that I'm working to quiet the mind it's a bit more evident. When I'm going to bed or it's a time when it stands out. I try to pretend it's a tuning fork in the distance that I'm trying to listen to as opposed to ignore.
I'm noticing the benefits of meditation popping up in some quiet moments during the day. The awareness of breath is more frequent and in turn serves as a quick scan of the body and where tension is being held. Still plenty of thought chains and restlessness popping up, but staying consistent in the practice feels good.
Not going to lie, I was pretty skeptical of this whole meditating with eyes open thing. But, I found a spot near a wall, let the eyelids rest comfortably and gave it shot. And, it was one of my more thought chain free sessions so far. I found my gaze settling in on that area right where the edge of the eyelid meets incoming light and found it really peaceful. Reflecting on the session later, the soft eyes experiment reminded me of a flipped sunset/horizon view. It was like the edge of the eyelids was the dark land and the light just below.
I haven't tried today's so still time to bungle things up!
I found this mornings meditation distractions rather delightful. They came in the way of my two small dogs wandering downstairs wondering why I'm, sitting in the dark and wondering why the usual petting and greeting wasn't happening. So they dropped toy after toy in my lap and wagged not just their tails but their whole bodies as they snuggled in next to me.
I'm sure I'll hit another wall at some point. But, overall the meditation has felt really good the last few days. I even found myself "awake" not sure that's exactly the right word, but certainly aware of my thoughts and then the breath practice came in my body relaxed and I found myself feeling bright eyed and bushy tailed at 5 AM. Lets see how the rest of the day goes!
Yesterday's meditation session was the longest five minutes of my life, where as today's was the shortest. Although, I think the thought chains were stacking up faster today. Which is why when the timer went off I was suddenly surprised that it was over. Also, I might have to start writing my blog posts before the meditation. As I catch myself thinking only to later catch myself thinking about how I'm going to write about catching myself thinking, settling the mind continues.
Today's photo: A meditation cushion I've had for about a decade finally getting some use!
Day 2 of the meditation is done and I'm realizing just how chatty my mind is! In fact as the thought chain popped up I found myself going down the rabbit hole and even noticing how I was writing this blog in my mind. I'm glad my thought chain didn't include Leonardo DiCaprio with a dreidel anywhere or I would have gotten really freaked out!
Looking forward to seeing this training through and observing the health benefits of a holistic practice. More on that as the practice continues.
Took the two yahoos in the photo out for a snowy walk as today's exercise.
KB2 Wrapped Up! GRADUATION POST
Just did the day 90 workout. I think I had blocked out what that workout looked like even though I was an advocate for the big cycle when Patrick made KB2.
Walking away from this round I'm most excited about the Wade's Army effort. I've been wanting to get involved for awhile and am psyched to have given it some follow through. I'll be looking to keep this trend going in 2019 as I find the charitable event helps with accountability.
The other take away for me at this stage in my fitness life, is getting better at steady effort. When I first got involved with fitness I found myself yoyo training. All out training mode, then off the wagon, and then all out again. The all out effort varied from hot yoga to strength training to other efforts. Right now I having less dips. I'm not the fittest I've ever been at the end of this KB2, but really like a steady daily effort. Looking forward to hearing from everyone else!
About to head in for the final workout. What do we have today to wrap up KB2? A day 8 workout like the end of KB1? Nope! A little bit of everything!! Game on!
Haven't posted in a bit. Had a lovely Thanksgiving with the Blackwell-Moore family who are also dedicated Kenzai trainees. Not gonna lie, I had a couple beers and some dessert, but overall a really healthy Thanksgiving. The upside of being a part of Kenzai for a long time is when your full your full. The desire to just stuff oneself because it's the holidays is a thing of the past. Also, we got out in the woods for a walk both before and after dinner. After dinner gave us a chance to take the kids on a little night hike under the full moon which they loved!
I'm digging the cycle workouts that we finish KB2 off with. Today, instead of doing all 20 minutes of jumprope at once, I added in short jumprope session after each chest exercise to keep things fun and interesting. I was a dripping mess but well worth it! Final few days of KB2! Looking forward to wrapping up an official training program, but still want to stay active through the holidays. And, I want to start thinking about a future training challenge. I'm open to ideas if anyone has suggestions. Wouldn't mind an event to train for or a specific goal to build up to...